I don’t know about you, but I have had many times throughout my 6-7 years of being independent from my parents that I have not felt okay. Times where when someone asked me how I was doing, my respond would be I am okay. But really, I wanted to scream from the bottom of my heart that I am confused, doubtful and totally lost.
Life after college can be difficult and confusing. Some people get married, some people spend time job searching. and others go straight into a full-time job. Some people even take the time to search for a different passion or take the time to get to know themselves better. I have noticed that there are many different types of people including: single full-time workers, married full-time workers, single job seekers, married job seekers, etc.
A few months ago I was driving from work and listening to the radio the song “Tell me you love me” by Demi Lovato was playing. I was hyped and enjoying the song and I was like yassss Demi girl sing it. But then the song went to this line where it said “you ain’t nobody till you got somebody.” Instantly I was offended, I was very taken back by the words and slowly I realized that there are so many people out there who are listening to these types of songs. These “types” of songs tell people over and over again that they need to have someone to matter, to feel important, and to feel beautiful or handsome.
In high school and parts of college I did a lot of ridiculous things! Some of those ridiculous things were saying yes to guys I didn’t like, or being at a party I knew I had no business going to, and saying yes to going to some random guy’s house (nothing happened) over night.
Growing up I was (still is) a wild child. By wild I mean, outgoing, and open. When i moved to America i had to learn that there are many things that are considered inappropriate (still learning this) and out of line. For the last 9-10 years, I was learning how to act normal, laugh at the right time, wear the right clothes and say the right things. Basically in any social gathering I would watch the person who is most liked or accepted and try to imitate them. Soon enough I learned that I can do all the imitation in the world, but I will never be like them.